It's 2 days to valentine's day. and i received a balloon with a packet of chocolates&sweets attached to it (some package by some club in the school).

My friends didn't have their lunch and they were hungry so i decided to give them the food (since they were terribly hungry and one seem to have gastric). You told me it's ok to give it to them since I told you I had sore throat and I can't eat it. But I know you were slightly hurt when I told you I gave them the food. Sorry, I hope you'll understand.

Then, in the LT I passed them the entire package (with the helium balloon) since they were terribly hungry. and then 'OH OH OMG'. knew it. the balloon was flying up to the ceiling and it stopped there, motionless. omg. i was a little.... hurt and surprized and lost. omg how? i felt a little dejected and then the thought came to me. maybe this was all fate. maybe its a sign that we should both let go. maybe it just wasn't going to work out. i texted to tell you that it flew off. you didn't reply. for a long long time. you were probably terribly hurt.

you ignored me during the walkabout. you were probably expecting me to come face to face and tell you i'm sorry. you were probably expecting me to be very very upset. but i seemed like i wasn't.
i wanted to go up to you to tell you actually i got it back. but there were so many people around. well, i just didn't want them to know about it.

so anyway, halfway through during the lecture the balloon actually decended (i was sooo shocked) and my friend grabbed it back and it came back to me. that moment, i was so happy. it was so amazing that it happened (my friend happened to let go of hers and it flew all the way to the back of the LT and didn't come back. yet, i realised it was slightly deflated. was it a sign? or was i thinking too much?

whatever it is, i am seriously grateful. someday, it might all work out. but first, i'll have to forget someone else.