I really thought everything was going to turn out fine today. no. in fact i was expecting it all to be really awesome. 1. I could skip school 2.I could skip cca 3. i had the entire day to myself(meaning i could plan my own schedule. 4. i could be with my family. 5. i had a great dinner and the list goes on. But it all turns out to be the opposite. i am terribly pissed and frustrated right now. and where are you. 

speaking about you. seriously i am terribly confused. i told myself repeatedly that i should never ever ever get used to it and never ever ever take it for granted. seems like i just did it. yes i has been bugging me since the afternoon. you're smart. i dont know whats going on. well, probably you realised i was soooo freaking pessimistic and soooo different from how you thought i would be and soooo different from your ideal image of me. well, im sorry. maybe its all good that you're ignoring now. maybe it's all good that its turning out this way. yes, at least i finally realised that you're not the one. and made it even clearer to me that in future that person has to be someone who can accept me entirely for who i am. and i do not have to change my personality whatsoever for him. because he loves me for who i am. period. i've learnt. i shall not rely on you anymore. not at all. cause you'll never like me for who i am. pessimistic and a mugger. we'll just stay as friends. that's it. thanks for waking me up. im grateful

next, you're suppose to be the one that's leading us. yes i know you are stressed yes i understand if you get a little ngsty. but you're suppose to be the one that's mentioning the meeting time, and now what, coming up with a timing last minute? and trying to reprimand me because i didnt get it by tmr. excuse me , you too. and you're the group leader hello. urgggg. to think that you can even be a president of another club. seriously. 

this was meant to be a really awesome day. it all screwed up like that.

i couldn't blame anyone but myself. for allowing it to affect me. so badly.

great and i just killed another person's day with my angsty tone. OMG this sucks. Im so sorry.