Have you ever had a time where you finally got a chance to prove your potential and how well you can get a job done. you were so positive about it that it would all go smoothly. however, you screwed up on your first task. the very first task. recuriting volunteers. such a simple task and your screwed it. and you sent that email to freaking 100+ of people and then follwoing that you had to send another email to the same people telling them to ignore the previous email. crewed it. max.
yes it might not seem like a huge issue and people would probably only curse you for longest, say, 15 min? and they forget about it soon. but it would probably affect me all the way, till the event ends, or maybe even longer. that's how important it is.
so yes, i screwed it up. my first task. i'm feeling very very very terrible now. i know it might not seem as something THAT BAD to others but really i feel stupid/dumb/sucky now. it feels a little embarressing also at the same time. yes i have another IC to work with. she has experience. i admit that i'm relying on her. initially. but she seems really inactive now. probably because she's busy with her PW? but hey if you actually realise i have PW too. and i have OCIP also. we need to share the burden. why am i doing it alone. yeah im in the BOD i hold a position. but that doesn't neccesarily means that you can slack off and make me do everything. of course this won't kill me. i believe it'll only teavh me to be stonger and to learn to accept sucj setbacks. i'll still keep a positive mindset. but i have to admit that i feel really really really suck-y now. i wish that did not happen. AT ALL. NOT AT ALL.
ok and i just whatsapp-ed her and she's inactive. am i being too quick? should i slow down? but isn't it better to settle it quickly. seriously you're getting on my nerves.
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