we'll see how it goes

OK i guess it was pretty much neccessary for me to talk about this.
I applied for OGL some weeks ago and had my interview. I got an OG mate as one of the interviwer and I also happen to know 2 other people in the planning committee. so it might seem like i stand a huge chance of being an OGL but actually it depends very much on your actual day interview and your HIGH-NESS (yes they need high people which i'm probably not)
Initially i really thought i was in OGL cause this planning comm person whom i knew came to me happily to tell me he knew who was in (and of course i thought i was in since you probably wouldn't happily go in front of a person you rejected to tell them you are out right?)(ok or maybe i was just thinking too much) also, my interviewer also smiled at me the other day we saw each other (so things were getting a little friendly i thought) and also the 2nd  planning comm person i knew started talking to me (so it really makes a lot of sense that i guessed i got in) however, now that i think back, they were nice to me (probably also) because they were sorry about rejecting me and was hoping that i would ask them how the results went so i wouldn't be hoping for anything. the results should be released soon but i'm still waiting till today... and slowly i do not see much hope in me getting in. my interviewer seem to be a little cold recently. (i just walked pass him today and ... yeah.. no smiles/hi/whatsoever) I mean it's not that i want it VERY badly. and its really ok if i dont get it. but.. ok i shall speak the truth. it's just about the face. I mean you go around telling people (ok cause they asked) that you applied for OGL and duhh its better that you end up telling them you got in. also, from my less closer friends, who feels that i am a little quiet (which is true) would give me the SERIOUSLY SHE APPLIED FOR IT face, i get a little upset and really want to prove them wrong that i did it. want so badly to tell them in the face , yeah i got it. BOOHOO for looking down on me. but its really not as easy to get it. they are chopping off about half of the people who applied for it. and frankly speaking, i didn't stand out during the interview.

oh wells, let's just hope for the best.would respect any decision given to me. and i trust that the decision given would be the best for me.
If i get in, its a chance for me to open up more and to learn to speak smartly
If i do not get in, then its probably cause i should focus on my studies instead of playing.

all the best :)