Sunday, November 13, 2016

你说过你追到累了。你也说过有问题可以和你分享。不过你也曾经说过,我也知道,你不会跑过来。你不会。你说过你不可能永远对我好。我知道。你说过你害怕失去我。当时如果选择放手的人是你,你就不难过了对吧。原来这问题,我得自己处理。我说过不知该在哪里话亲界限。原来是这里。不和你分享问题,你无奈,你离开。是。你没责任留下。放手那么多次这一次不算真么。我愿意努力。只是你也一样得努力。谈恋爱是什么,谈恋爱我该怎么对你。还想对你好,只是这样崩溃你接受不了。being emotional didn't work. You said I was cold. And yeah you broke down this cold wall. Who knew what lies behind this cold wall. Who knew all these emotions lies behind this cold wall. Who knew this was what she was hiding. Who knew this was what she's going through while putting on a smiling front. Waves and waves of emotions that never got flushed out, circling within her were waves and waves of emotions no one could deal with. She thought that was the case and hence never told anyone about it. She never did till you came. You came along and told her persuaded her to open up. She trusts you and told you things she never told anyone. You encouraged her to do so even though she was afraid that it was too overwhelming. And she thought you were ok with it. She thought you were going to know how to deal with this. She trusts you cause you said she could. She thought you'll never leave. Or so she thought. But you left. You left her. So tell me who can she trust. Will there be anyone that can deal with this. Will there be. Maybe she needs to learn, to learn to manage her emotions better and get over things quickly and don't remain too affected by it. Or at least appear so. I let my guard down. It turned for the worst. So what now. To learn or to go back the old ways. Who would teach her? No one could or maybe no one would. She doesn't know where to look, she doesn't know how. And so she goes back to the old days. It turns out that she shouldn't have let her guard down. When she returns, uncertainty awaits. Maybe he's scared. Doubting. Asking if it's right for things to work this way. Maybe he'll let her go. Maybe he'll realize he could never deal with that. She's weird. I told you so. She's weird and one of a kind. I warned you. I told you so. I warned you.

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