when you tell your friends how depressed you feel or anything negative. they tell you they've got your back. they tell you they'll always be there. 24/7.
sometimes it's not good to over-promise if you can't fulfill that.
friendship is a beautiful thing. it can be built within seconds, it can last for a lifetime. but only if made with the right people and with the right effort to sustain it.
frankly speaking, i dont feel that i'm suited for friendships (the long-lasting ones). i mean, i would wish and love to have it but sometimes i feel that i'm too realistic to have one. i'm too self-centered to think of my friends before me. yeah i went out on a date with my girlfriends a week before my promos but it's to the extend that even my friends feels that i'm too........... arghh i dont know whats that words but it's negative :/
i try to change. but i'm a really extreme person. it's either i change to be reallyyyyyy nice and give in to everything and probably end up over-doing it. or be really mean and end up having no true friends.
well im only 17 and i know i have a long way ahead of me to meet many more people to forge even more friendships. but i can't help feeling lonely now.
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