我很确定在家等待的时候，我非常非常期待能看到你。我很确定。但为什么再见到你的时候，一切又变了。感觉淡化了许多。没有满心期待。I wasn't as happy as I thought I would be. So what happned. I shared my story, but at the back of my mind, I had this thought going on "why am I doing this? This does not feel right at all. Not at all." I told you everything, or at least most of it. But the emotions were all too wrong. It was dead silent, with regular intervals of doubt regarding my actions. 我以为变好了，我以为没事了。我以为我放下了。nope. apparently 你比想象中来得小气。 and that's bad, you know that.