Numerous times, going back and forth about the same topic. When you come by too often, when I get used to your prescence, I wish for some freedom, some time alone. I feel like we need some time off. Conversations are running out and it revolvs around the same thing. The way you behave can be a turn off some times. Too childish, we can't hold a conversation on a serious topic. You told me your friends enjoy your company. Yes, you're fun to be around. But what happens if I need someone to talk to me about a matter that has been troubling me? What happens if I need a serious heart-to-heart talk instead of a casual 'fun' talk? I don't know. Maybe you feel like we're not on that level of friendship to talk about serious matters yet. Or maybe you just can't hold deep conversations and don't reflect or even pay attention to such things in life. If that's the case, it's not going to work out no matter how considerate you are or no matter what you do to prove your worth.

Yet, when such thoughts run through my mind, there's this little part of me that wishes for your company. I wish you're around. That emptiness, it's awkward. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know your intentions anymore. One moment you're pointing out the flaws and maybe you're truly fustrated by it by hey this is who I am. I am not planning to change by the way. I am planning to stay the way I am unless someone proves to me why its important for me to change. So if you can't take it, please let me know.

I guess time will tell. I'll have to wait.