Don't ever rely

and so, it seems like I will be alone for the remaining week/days.

and so, now perhaps you'll understand why I'm afraid to get used to things, to get used to people's existence, to get used to company. Because when they leave, there's that awkward sudden emptiness. I'm not blaming you. I understand. It's just... well... I'll get used to it. It's no big deal. It's just... the road back is going to seem quiter, colder and lonlier than before. I was used to walking that path alone. When you came it got brighter and surprsingly way shorter. Well... I don't know how it's going to turn out tomorrow. I mean, it's not that bad to have sometime for yourself I guess. It's not that bad to have sometime to reflect and experience that walk back like how it used to be initially. It's really not that bad.

Don't rely. Don't ever rely.