I went to sleep last night feeling very very terrible. why. why did it have to turn out this way.

of course the alarm woke me up in the morning, i still remeber myself falling alseep feeling very upset. but was all better. a sleep really cures everything. i woke up and checked mu phone: 12 new messages. i thought at least one was from you. turns out that it isn't. not one was from you. not even one.

有时候我真的开始怀疑你的真心。是不是累了？是不是烦了？我不会怪你。真的。because we are both to insensitive to one another's feelings. it's ironic. because we both are sensitive by nature. yet, we are so unaware when it comes to just us. i ended off the conversation with 'ok' i guess you weren't expecting that. yes, i did it because i was slightly pissed. 很幼稚吧？i think we're pretty similar in terms of personality which sucks. because we end up getting angry over the same thing, having the same reaction and all the nonsense starts coming. i know it seems to you that i am not trying. but i wish you knew i always thought about it. all the time. i just didn't want you to know. it's part of my nature. we'll take one step at a time and see what happens. i know some part of it was my fault,but one of the new messages should have at least came from you.