或许我这一辈子也不可能会明白。真的真的无法明白为什么。
why can they be so supportive. why when we are more well-to-do are unable to afford. he said yes, do whatever you want i'll help you. why do i not own such supportive parents. why. you can have enough to invest in overseas properties and yet not in your daughter's future, in what she deeply believes she wants. it has always been in her. and yet you're telling her no. why. why are you so not supportive?
i wish i had parents that loved me. i wished they cared for me. it's not that im being unappreciative, 你为我做的事，我都懂。but why, why can other parents do more? yes, there are people around without parent's love. i know. but i can't help comparing to the even better ones. why. they have parents that make breakfast and lunch for them. they have parents that gives them extra pocket money, scared that they do not have enough to eat in school. they have parents who are willing to pay for their education, any amount. why, why is mine so different. 是不是因为我排第二，am i suppose to make myself more noticeable?
im hurt. terribly.

我知道我应该知足。知足常乐。快乐起来吧，it's ok. everything's ok. haven't you always encouraged yourself when times like this comes? 加油吧，we'll make the best out of it.
it's ok.