I can't help feeling tired and frustrated about it. every single time. and im glad that this is the last. so glad because it's tough. and yes, people shun from you for it.

I guess this is partia;;y why this is all happening i guess. you're running away. you're afraid i'll ask. 当全世界都背向着我时，我以为你会在，我以为起码有你依靠。我错了。是我太天真。

someday, i wish to be like them. to be able to dump everything aside and not feel guilty at all. even the slightest guilt, not at all. if only i could be like this. because im tired of running this.