This got me thinking that maybe it was better this way after all. Maybe it was great to have this long break so we can both settle it out. Separately. Unaffected by the emotions and presence. Maybe everything would die down, maybe we'll come to realise it's just not right. Or maybe just you. Just you coming to realise it all and me, 原地踏步. Tell me straight so I'll get it. Don't go on with that theory of yours. It's karma maybe. I'm sorry.

A life like this away from your usual self, some abnormalities. Maybe you'll come to see the difference and better appreciate those who care. It's those that notice the little abnormalities that are important no? So I hope you see. See it clear. Who cares and who don't and if this is all worthwhile. All the time and worry. Yes, there's some joy in it too that you'll have to give credit to. But really? Is this what you want? Maybe you're worrying too much, but it keeps you away from wasting your time. It keeps you away from the possibility of excessive negativity. Think clear. Is this what you want? Are the short moments of happiness and adrenaline rush and maybe even heart flutters worthwhile? Would they last in the long run? Would it still stay the same? What if it dies out? Would it still be the same or would it end up as something undesirable? What is it that you're looking for? What is it that you want? What is it that you're willing to take in, to compromise, to give up? To give up without regrets without pain without getting scarred?

I don't know. I'm lost. Tell me the truth, give me a sign. I'll take it. The right way.