How would you define friendship? or rather, how would one measure friendship? how much would one have to do for another to be considered important as a friend? how much would one have to give up to be able to gain recognition as a true friend?

有时候我真的不清楚自己是不是把友情看得太重要？Would others value me as much as I would value them? 我真的以为我们是朋友了。不，是好朋友。Yes, we've only known each other for 1.5years, but i thought our chemistry and how we could 'clic' with each other could prove that knowing each other for ONLY 1.5 years was not that important. 我努力过做好一个好朋友的责任，也放弃了不少时间和与别人的互动。还不够吗？I'm really at loss now. Is it really not enough? 一直都在寻找一个知心朋友，一直都在寻找一个可靠的朋友。自己也一直在努力成为这个朋友。我没有做得很完美，但是总就还是希望能见成果。

I sincerely thought we were good friends. 还是是我自己把“好朋友”这个定义看得太重？
真心好友真难找。

honestly, i thought it would all be over. it'll all turn numb especially after the wrapping etc... but turns out that it's back again. after yesterday. 是不是我们彼此都放不下？or maybe you've gone back to your daily routine. just like how you thought im back to normal. but yes, i'm glad i've promised myself that after 31 may, i'm officially letting everything go, including you. i'll come back from japan just like how i was the beginning of this year. it'll be as if nothing happened. i'll fly but i won't take you along. i'm leaving you behind. officially. i'll definitely find a way, and i believe i will.