There's been many times when I wanted so much to on my computer and start blogging but... either the page took too long to load that I lost all my inspiration or i was just too lazy.

So anyways, have you ever tried to hard to fit into this particular group but realized that no matter how hard you tried, you can't? I'm currently in this CCA with super nice people and it's a nice environment. In the beginning, ALMOST everyone were strangers. So yup, there were awkward moments(not in the bad way), but we could all mix well together. There were no clics whatsoever. Everyone could talk to one another. But now, as time has passed, there's this 'clic' forming. It's not very distinct as to who is in, but it's vaguely there. And it's making me uncomfortable. slightly. I know it's natural for that to occur but... i don't exactly like it. So there's this 'leader' inside, and I've a feeling she doesn't reallyyy like me. Yes i can be over sensitive but it seems like it. What's worse is I don't have a very good feeling towards her too. Not to the extent that I hate her but ... just not THAT much to my liking. I've thought much about the reason why I dislike her (I mean i can't possibly dislike someone 'just because' right?) and surprisingly i can't. sigh. dunno la.. zzzz
should i try my best to find a positive side of her and stop the dislike to wards her or just hold it for another 6 months  :/